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Review by Suze
Luke's younger brother Marius was only 14 years old when he passed away. Luke is wondering if he's still a brother now that he doesn't have a brother anymore. When his mother wants to burn his brother's things Luke tries to rescue Marius's diary. At first he doesn't want to read it, but to make sure his mother doesn't put it on the fire he writes his own secrets into the diary as well. When he eventually does read it he starts to reply to Marius's sentences. Because of the diary he discovers a lot about his brother, things he didn't have a clue about in life...
Marius is really sick and in his diary he writes about what it's like. It's a heartfelt story that makes me cry every time I read it. I've read this book several times already and will continue to read it over and over again. Luke has a secret and Marius knows what it is, he's gay and he doesn't dare to tell anyone. Which is why he's shutting himself in his room and doesn't want to talk to anyone including his brother. While reading the diary he's slowly opening up. That's one thing I find truly beautiful about this story. What's the best part for me though is the way they are talking through the diary. Even though Marius isn't there any longer Luke is still communicating with him.
Ted van Lieshout is a brilliant writer. The questions Luke has, the moving way he tells this story and the way he describes everything that's going on inside the minds of both brothers are making this such a special book. It enables the reader to get really close to Luke and Marius, to nearly feel what they are feeling. I think it's one of the best Dutch books of all times.