Aug 5, 2014

The Show Must Go On


The show must go on, so I put on this fabulous Diane Von Furstenberg dress that my aunt gave me and try to think happy thoughts. Of course I cry my eyes out when I'm alone in my bed at night, but during the day I have to behave professionally. I think it's mean that Calvin has ruined my vacation, but I understand that he wants to meet Clarissa and be a father for her. I wish he could have done that with me in his life instead of without me. I haven't heard from him anymore since he left, so I don't even know if he's seen her already. His mother called me yesterday and she told me how sorry she was and she too gets why Calvin has acted this way, but she thinks he's made a mistake. She was sure Calvin had finally found the one and she thinks he will regret his decision to break up with me. I think she's right, but that doesn't change the situation, Calvin has made his choice and he hasn't chosen me.
Because I'm at the bed & breakfast I missed my Monday class from Rian. He joined us as soon as he was done and stayed for dinner. He gave me a shoulder to cry on and then he fed me lemon pie to cheer me up. It really helped and I'm glad he's my friend. He's just sent his latest manuscript to his publisher and has the rest of the week off, so he offered to help out here as well. He can aid some of the people who are taking the course and he's fun to be with. Some of them were in awe when they found out he's the writer of several famous crime novels. Rian also thought it would be nice to bring some champagne to cheer me up and he even managed to get a box of my favorite brand. I drank a little bit too much, but at least I didn't feel sad the entire time. It was good to be with both friends and family. 
I also think I've made a new friend. Her name is Carmen and she's an illustrator. She wants to write her own stories to accompany her drawings. She showed me some of them and they are stunning. She's really talented and draws beautiful fairies. She's also 29 years old and went through a break up not too long ago, so she knows what it's like. We got drunk together and moaned about men for a while. It's too bad she isn't living next door, but she invited me to stay at her place in the countryside some time soon. It sounds really good and it will be a bit like a holiday. I'm glad she's given me something to look forward to, I really needed that. 

1 comment:

  1. I hope your pain has eased up a bit. Or gone all together. I can remember a time when I had a break up after 5 years together. I got really drunk with family and it helped at times. It was around Christmas time. I love your dress! And the one you posted below. Just beautiful pieces.

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